Ain’t Got A Clue
No idea what will happen next. Probably nothing. Sometimes I feel nothing in life is going to work out. That would sum up my last two weeks.
It’s all about money. That is my pure focus right now. How can I make enough to pay all my bills. How can I save money long term. How can I make sure I am not hemorrhaging money anymore.
I don’t know how much optimism I have left. The options for a better life seem fairly dim. And when I say better I simply mean a more exciting life in which I challenge myself. Because right now I am not. I am simply go to work, watch TV and lift weights. I left my music instruments in the pawn shop because I just don’t care enough to play them. Sad. I also am close to giving up on my basketball story. Yet another year where the things that needed to fall into place technologically have not.
So listless boring life. Perhaps I should start dating. But even that would involve more effort than I feel worth mustering. Yawn.
Sleeping in 4 hour cycles. 10:00pm to 1:30 am and then 11:00 am to 2:00pm. I am getting nothing done. I still have not moved my stuff out of Milo.